Weight loss and triumph
It's been entirely too long between updates but there was a reason for it...well, not actually, but there is. More like an excuse. First off, it's hard to find motivation when you don't have many people supporting you...I felt like I was writing to myself, which in a way, COULD be motivating, but if I'm putting myself out there, I WANT people to respond. Secondly, I failed to realize that the ONLY way of motivating myself was to MOTIVATE MYSELF. It was wrong for me to assume that I needed someone to motivate me. I need support from people...to correct me when I'm out of line, to get me out there when I don't want to, but motivation, I've found, comes from within. Sometimes, it takes some sort of God smack to get yourself going, sometimes it's just the fear of failure or strive for success. For me, it was the God smack. So you see, I let myself balloon back to 205 pounds, from my lowest of 159. I just didn't care. I wasn't happy at home, my kids hate me and I used food to solve all my ills. Then my Dad passed away on Valentine's day and food again, I felt, was the ONLY thing there for me. So, I packed on 20+ pounds and got to my second highest weight ever (without being pregnant).
Go me.
Well, I was experiencing some odd stuff so I went to the doctor and had her run a few tests. Luckily, she went with her gut and ordered a series of tests that she didn't tell me about, but appeased me and did a few that I requested. Well, she was right (gee, is that what they go to med school for?!?) and I was indeed, pre-diabetic. See, when you get tested, your comprehensive metabolic panel can't be over 99 mg, your CHOL/HDLC ratio can not be over 5.0 and your triglycerides can't be over 150mg. Well, my results weren't so great. Comprehensive was at 103, CHOL was at 4.8 and triglycerides were off the chart at 256. Unreal. Watching my Dad suffer though diabetes and seeing how he just didn't care about what he ate, gained a lot of weight in his stomach and just kept pumping himself with insulin was NOT my idea of the legacy I wanted to leave for my kids. I wanted them to see that this was not a good diagnosis, but I was going to change my life and set the example for them.
And so it began...
I started my odyssey. Not my diet, not my exercise regimen, but my freedom from the possibilities of diabetes, a way of living my life truthfully and without using food as a crutch. I'm happy to report that I am now 160 pounds, 45 pounds down from where I started and 5 sizes down. My blood results were amazing...in only 4 months, I was able to lose the weight...and my numbers were that of an entirely different person. Comprehensive was 95, CHOL 3.7 and triglycerides...yeah, got those down to 117. Not to mention, my total cholesterol went from 197 to 159, HDL from 41 to 43 and LDL from 105 to 93. I changed my entire life, probably added a few years back on and am SO HAPPY with myself.
But I'm not just happy because I'm thinner. I still have 15 pounds to hit my goal of 145 and after I hit that goal, I want to hit 135 as my life goal...the weight that I always want to be. But I'm taking it easy this time...I'm not putting too much pressure on myself. Instead, I up my ante and I jog more miles, work harder and eat less when I'm stressed. I just can't get to that bad place again...for me and for my kids.
Lastly, everyone asks..."what's your secret?!". I hear this from skinny girls, medium girls and big girls...and to be honest, I went old school; DIET AND EXERCISE. And what I mean by diet is that I just watched what I ate...tried to be healthier with my choices, cut out fast food and made wise choices, not to mention, ate less of it....stopped when I was comfortable instead of full. I exercised every day, twice a day...started walking 2 miles in the morning and 2 miles at night. Now, I jog 2 miles on Tuesday and Thursday, jog/walk 4 miles on M, W, F and jog/walk 3 miles on Sat & Sun. I work out at night roughly 2-3 nights per week. Sure, the weight is slower at coming off now, but most of the time I'm going down instead of up and I'm not giving myself any excuses this time.
Hopefully, I'll be able to update more...it's always neat to look back on how far I've come. I want to post about cussing out Jillian Michaels when she's making me huff and puff. But mostly I want to post for me because I want to see how far I can get, how far I can push myself and how much of a better person I can be.
Go me.
Well, I was experiencing some odd stuff so I went to the doctor and had her run a few tests. Luckily, she went with her gut and ordered a series of tests that she didn't tell me about, but appeased me and did a few that I requested. Well, she was right (gee, is that what they go to med school for?!?) and I was indeed, pre-diabetic. See, when you get tested, your comprehensive metabolic panel can't be over 99 mg, your CHOL/HDLC ratio can not be over 5.0 and your triglycerides can't be over 150mg. Well, my results weren't so great. Comprehensive was at 103, CHOL was at 4.8 and triglycerides were off the chart at 256. Unreal. Watching my Dad suffer though diabetes and seeing how he just didn't care about what he ate, gained a lot of weight in his stomach and just kept pumping himself with insulin was NOT my idea of the legacy I wanted to leave for my kids. I wanted them to see that this was not a good diagnosis, but I was going to change my life and set the example for them.
And so it began...
I started my odyssey. Not my diet, not my exercise regimen, but my freedom from the possibilities of diabetes, a way of living my life truthfully and without using food as a crutch. I'm happy to report that I am now 160 pounds, 45 pounds down from where I started and 5 sizes down. My blood results were amazing...in only 4 months, I was able to lose the weight...and my numbers were that of an entirely different person. Comprehensive was 95, CHOL 3.7 and triglycerides...yeah, got those down to 117. Not to mention, my total cholesterol went from 197 to 159, HDL from 41 to 43 and LDL from 105 to 93. I changed my entire life, probably added a few years back on and am SO HAPPY with myself.
But I'm not just happy because I'm thinner. I still have 15 pounds to hit my goal of 145 and after I hit that goal, I want to hit 135 as my life goal...the weight that I always want to be. But I'm taking it easy this time...I'm not putting too much pressure on myself. Instead, I up my ante and I jog more miles, work harder and eat less when I'm stressed. I just can't get to that bad place again...for me and for my kids.
Lastly, everyone asks..."what's your secret?!". I hear this from skinny girls, medium girls and big girls...and to be honest, I went old school; DIET AND EXERCISE. And what I mean by diet is that I just watched what I ate...tried to be healthier with my choices, cut out fast food and made wise choices, not to mention, ate less of it....stopped when I was comfortable instead of full. I exercised every day, twice a day...started walking 2 miles in the morning and 2 miles at night. Now, I jog 2 miles on Tuesday and Thursday, jog/walk 4 miles on M, W, F and jog/walk 3 miles on Sat & Sun. I work out at night roughly 2-3 nights per week. Sure, the weight is slower at coming off now, but most of the time I'm going down instead of up and I'm not giving myself any excuses this time.
Hopefully, I'll be able to update more...it's always neat to look back on how far I've come. I want to post about cussing out Jillian Michaels when she's making me huff and puff. But mostly I want to post for me because I want to see how far I can get, how far I can push myself and how much of a better person I can be.
posted by Judi B @ 1:03 PM
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