Monday-A Day of FUN!

We all went to an amusement park all day so I had no time for the gym. It was fun, well, I mean "fun" because it was supposed to be a "fun" day...and it "was" in the purest definition of the word, but for the overall view of myself, it was really a day of awakening. I have a problem. A huge problem with food. I was eating lunch, happily stuffing my face and though I felt like I was eating slowly, as I finished my hamburger and started finishing off my fries, picking at my daughter's food, I see that no one is even remotely close to finishing their meals at the table. My husband, who had started well before me, was not even half way done with his burger, my daughter, 1/2 a chicken strip done and my son, 1/4 way through his burger. Did I really eat THAT fast or did they eat THAT slow? What happened? And the worse part? About half way through my burger, I felt full...and kept eating....finishing....helping my daughter eat her meal...picking away at the food on the table since everyone wasn't done eating...but I just don't STOP. I grew embarrassed. I got in a bad mood, lamenting myself, punishing myself for doing this. We later went to the fun house with the kids and they had a tall fun mirror there and as I walked by, I caught a glimpse of myself...the mirror, which I usually avoid, made me look skinny, but a normal skinny, not a stretched out silly skinny like you see in normal fun house mirrors...and I thought, "I'm so big that this makes me look normal." I wanted to cry. Then I learned to appreciate what I looked like thin. I don't look too bad, I think to myself. It's time to start trying harder. I need to do this...it's time to get back on track.

So, I'm denying myself dinner. It's the best solution. Mostly because I really exceeded all possible calories a human can consume in one day after the lunch I had and secondly, because I really still feel full. I nibbled on a few mini biscuits from Knott's Berry Farm too (it's a tradition to pick up some before we go home...my husband usually eats them all though) on the way home in the car....and though it was hard, I cut myself off pretty quickly (the need to eat resurfaced...the smell of fresh baked biscuits can put any sane person over the edge!).

Diet:
Breakfast: 2.5 cups Special K cereal; Vanilla & Almond, 1.5 cups of 2% milk
Lunch: 1 large cheeseburger w/1 slice of bacon, 1 leaf of lettuce, 2 tomato slices; 1 large serving bowl of crinkle cut fries, 1 chicken tender (which was dry and over-fried, but I still ate it), 1 medium Sierra Mist
Snack: 1.5 mini biscuits w/ a tsp. of bosenberry jam; 1 medium sierra mist
Water: 1 11oz glass

What the scale said today: 172.6